First, let me just put this out there: I am not looking to
get married. Not now, not tomorrow and maybe not ever. If ever a day comes
along that this is even a thought in my head, M will be long gone from home and
well into his own adult life. I refuse to subject him to that. He has a dad
whom he sees nearly every day. They are close. Our home is safe and stable, and
I don’t want to go messing with that for each of us. We got a good thing going
on.
And since I am being honest: I don’t ever want to have any
more children. I know you think this: “You’re so young; there’s time; give M a
little brother/sister/alien.” He already has a half brother. And a step
brother. And a cousin. And gobs of friends. This uterus is closed for business.
Being pregnant wasn't a dream the first time; I doubt that any subsequent times
would improve the experience. And please, don’t make me go through the newborn sleep issues, the nursing every hour, the incessant toddler “why’s,” the potty
training and all that again. Not me. No way. Not gonna happen. Once was plenty.
So, if I’m not interested in marriage or babies, what the
heck am I doing?!? Here’s a brief list of what I thought I was looking for.
1. A non-married male who wants to hang out with me.
It sounds so freaking simple, doesn't it?
And where, oh where, could I find such a man?
I thought through everybody I knew…and made my first
mistake on this hilarious road.
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