When you're a single mom with a child who lives with you most of the time and you work full time. and you have a house and family and friends and just general shit to do, it can be hard to find the time for a date, for a moment to text, for just to entertain a sane thought in your head. But, amazingly, there does seem to be time for me and my TDP to spend together.
Last night, he came over once my sweet son was asleep. We watched a movie, hung out, laughed, acted silly. It felt like a stolen moment together. Tonight, will be more of the same. Secret, stolen moments that really are feeding part of my life that is grossly malnourished.
I don't know where this is going to end up with us. Will I get sick of his silly ways and want someone who acts more mature? Will he get sick of working around my limited schedule? Or, will this work out for something long and sweet for both our lives? I think for now, I want and need to banish those future thoughts from my head. I want to believe in the right now-ness of this man and what is happened between us. It feels like something really magical.
What a cliche! Magical? You'd think I could select a more proper word. But magical does it. It is not explainable, seems other-worldly and defies logic.
I hope that this man doesn't break my heart.
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