Three Weeks In

Still having fun with the new “toy.”  But I think that the newness is going to wear off pretty quickly and this intense fling will fall by the wayside. He’s way too immature and carefree for me. Don’t get me wrong; I like to laugh, joke, be silly, act frivolous. I do. I spend a lot of my life laughing. But when someone asks me a serious question, I can give them a serious, thoughtful and legitimate answer. I’d like the same thing, but am often met with jokes and laughter. Perhaps I never realized that I do have a serious, intense and inquisitive side to my personality. Perhaps my deepness is more than I realized. I guess I am looking for a connection on a strong level.

 Or, maybe TDP is just really immature. Last night, he told me straight out that he’s just a big kid and growing up is overrated. Yes, that’s why you live at home and will never leave. Why leave a good thing?

Are there any men out there who are independent AND fun? I think I’m chasing a magical unicorn who lives on a rainbow with a jackalope. Doesn’t exist. Won’t find it.

 So, what’s a girl to do? He invited me to a party in a couple of weeks to meet his friends. I secured a sitter and actually am looking forward to it. I haven’t been to a party like that in such a long time. However, I have a feeling it’s going to be a bunch of drunk people being stupid. If so, I will simply exit early. I already went to college. I already acted stupid enough times in my life to know better. I guess I find that there’s a much more real part of life. Hopefully the party and his friends will surprise me! Hopefully we’ll make it the next two weeks to the party. I don’t know.

I think I’m going to be back looking for someone else here pretty soon. Humph. Just enjoying the ride until this peters out.